I find it hard to believe that I have lived 1 year without her... her love, her amazing advice (she would always say; "everything is going to be all right.") & her sweet-funny faces. I love knowing she is with God & all of her loved ones that she missed so much, but that doesn't make me miss her any less. I have truly missed her every minute since she left. I was given this advice this morning... "Think of it like this... She's not really gone, she's just away & we will all be together again one day. Live your life & make her proud... look up... she is just beyond the clouds." -My Momma
This past year... heaven gained two of the most important people in my life. My Nanny, and my Dad. One was sadly expected, the other, completely unexpected. Death is never an easy thing to understand, but I was hit head on with having to try & understand, while all the while knowing I shouldn't ask "why?". A few things I know for sure that have gotten me through the heartaches of the past year... The first, is my relationship with my Heavenly Father. Knowing that He has the plan, that He sees the big picture, that one day I will see all of those that have gone before me... that gave me hope. The second, my amazing Husband. We have faced more things in our 1st year of marriage, than some couples face in 20 years. We believe the trials & struggles we have endured have only made our relationship stronger, and have brought us closer than we ever imagined. We are reminded that the trials & struggles of this life, only help us to draw closer to God, and make us appreciate our blessings even more. These are lyrics from one of my favorite Christian songs... "Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops? What if Your healing comes through tears? What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near? What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?" -Blessings by Laura Story. The third, my wonderful family. They haven't invented words for how much I love them. We may not have it all together, but together we have it all.
If you haven't heard the song "Knowing What I Know About Heaven" by Guy Penrod, as well as "Blessings" by Laura Story, please look them up on Youtube. They both have the most amazing lyrics.
I'll end with these...
"God is able to accomplish, provide, help, save, keep, subdue... He is able to do what you can't. He already has the plan. God's not bewildered. Go to Him." -Max Lucado
"If today were your last, would you do what you're doing? Or would you love more, give more, forgive more? Then do so! Forgive and give as if it were your last opportunity. Love like there's no tomorrow, and if tomorrow comes, love again." -Max Lucado

The most beautiful, sweet, amazing woman I've ever met... I will miss her everyday until we meet again.
I love you, Nanny.
Love & Blessings,
Jenna